Growing up in the late 80's, I spent a lot of time with my grandmother. She was a loving, selfless, firm individual who gave up working to take care of me and my brothers while my mom worked at her government job.
For the most part, this
was a wonderful part of my life. She cooked, she cleaned, she turned the TV on so I could watch my favorite shows, and she gave me her bed whenever I took naps. Even in the lower level impoverished housing developments we lived in, I felt rich on so many levels.
We used to call her "Mom" because she was like a second mother to everyone. Mom, even taught me my first entrepreneur lesson. She would pay me thirty cents to vacuum the floor of the tiny apartment we inhabited. This money meant everything to me. For thirty
cents I could get a bag of Doritos, lemonade, and candy. It was another little piece of heaven in my young life. Did I mention I felt rich? Lol! I was fed, bathed, cooked for, well rested and on top of the world.
Fast forward to a short
time later, I was short on cash and decided I was going to take the initiative and vacuum the floor without Mom having to tell me. I was feeling so fantastic, I went up to my grandmother and said,
"Mom, I vacuumed the floor, you can give me thirty cents
now!" Her response was simple and firm.
"No sir, I didn't ask you to do that."
I ran to my room and cried because in my mind, at the time, I felt something that a lot of us has felt in our lives around money:
felt undeserving, and unworthy of money....
So, from that day on, I carried that undeservingness and unworthiness with
me in every situation involving money. I look back on the struggles I had through adolescence, teen years, and a big part of adulthood. As challenging as it was to experience having this in deeper consciousness of my mind, it was equally a blessing. A
huge blessing now looking back on it.
Mom never intended to make me feel unworthy, that's just the way that I interpreted it...You see, human beings are the most complex creatures because of our emotional nature. It often doesn't matter what
people imply when they tell us things, what matters is how we feel about it...This is never more true than when it comes to money.
Money at it's core is just energy. An expression of energy from the universe that
carries with it, a neutral, yet loving charge until we create an interpretation around it. Whatever interpretation you've made, is the experience you are living out to this day.
|"When it comes to money, your interpretation of it dictates its movement in your life." |
Mom, made her transition during Christmas time of 1997, but she has
very much been a huge part of my growth as a man since the time of her passing. Without her part in my soul lesson, I would have never understood the basis for how everything functions in the universe, especially money.
We didn't have much material
stuff growing up, but what we did have as a family that was passed on to me is resilience. Resilience, to me, The ability to bounce back from challenges, find the creative solution, and take action.
You, can use this formula to
heal, improve, or just be at peace with your financial life. And keep in mind, everything can only operate off how we choose to interpret and feel about it. Get clear, choose to feel the truth and allow the abundance to show up!